Recently I had a group of women over and asked us all to share our biggest dreams/goals. I also asked each of us to tell the group what we need from them to help us on achieving this goal. It was a beautiful night that ended with me washing the dishes, closing up the home, turning off the lights and walking into my bathroom before going to bed. When I sat on the john I looked up and was touched to see what was on my mirror. You see, before the group arrived I wrote on the mirror in bold red lipstick, Thank You. Someone had added during the night in what appears to be rose colored lip liner, “we are the ones who we have been waiting for”.
I’ve read that statement on my mirror every day since, still not knowing who wrote it but feeling love for the gift. In my 7th month of whole foods eating and yoga and my 1st month of listening to transformational speakers I have known 2 things. I need this time alone at home to refocus my brain and my body on taking this life of mine to the next spectacular level. I also know I want to serve humanity by offering support and inspiration to women and girls who like myself have or are growing up poor and battered. Each time I think about how I will do that I am very vague and tell myself, “for now, you need to continue the inner work and then you will be ready to help others”.
Today I got clear with myself. I have been doing the inner work for over 30 years now and am currently just taking it to the next exponentially higher level. I am enough right here, right now to be a mentor.
With fear that I am not enough resonating at some low level in my psyche I researched local organizations that help women and girls in crisis. I chose one that resonated with everything my family would have benefited from in my childhood and slowly, I filled out the volunteer form.
I have no idea if I will qualify for who they look for but its time to feel the fear and walk through it. I’m nervous about the call but I am moving forward in the right direction for today. Each day if we want to achieve our highest resonance with who we are meant to be in the world we must do at least 1 small act toward moving into that space.
Today I took another uncomfortable leap.