It has been awhile since I have written. I have spent the last couple of months wobbling between trying to feel good about the results in my life and feeling down right crappy about the results in my life!
I did not reach my weight goals by the date I had set my goals for.
I did not reach my financial goals when I had set them for.
I did not keep to my daily work out goals.
If the NOW is not the skinny, muscular, financially secure reality I had dreamed of then I messed up! If my finances are not where I wanted them RIGHT NOW then how the heck can they be where I want them in 8 months or 17 months or 5 years from now?
If I am not sticking to my health goals then just how delusional am I to think I can have a goal of teaching healthy behaviors to others in a few years?
Suddenly I remembered…
Mindfullness in the NOW brings joy.
Mindfullness in the NOW allows me to enjoy what I have achieved.
Mindfullness in the NOW allows me to live my dreams now.
I realized this morning that I only have 13 lbs to be at my goal weight. Living in this new body NOW allows me to more comfortably workout and to wear the smaller sizes that bring me my goal of living a vibrant, sexy, glowing, fashionable life NOW.
I want to be hiking with my son in the Rockies this summer so hiking in Ohio NOW allows me to live in that dream of breathing in beauty NOW and just so happens to be getting me in better shape for hiking in the Rockies.
Enjoying the beauty of my everyday surroundings NOW bring the sense of satisfaction that makes saving money a joy rather than spending money for instant gratification when I feel lacking.
I had gotten so caught up with my goals that feel EXTREME in comparison to what I see as lacking now that I got bummed out. I became so deeply dissatisfied with my focusing on lack in the now that I lost sight of the abundance in the now.
The abundance of sunlight
The abundance of health
The abundance of kind friends
The abundance of beautiful art in my home
The abundance of finances that keep my bills paid
The abundance of beautiful nature in my yard
The abundance of kind words from friends and clients
The abundance of fun with my coworkers
The abundance of time spent with my son and his partner on their recent visit
My focus on what currently feels EXTREME in my future left me focusing on what I perceived as lacking in my NOW.
I am so grateful to slide back into a place of Mindfullness of what beauty is in my NOW. I started this journey chilled, in receiving mode, honoring my pace that needed to be slow in the beginning. When I realized this morning that I was focused completely on what feels like extreme goals (of course the goals for 5 years down the road feel extreme) I opened a video on YouTube and laughed hysterically when it started with an ad about how bummed out we get about our goals when we are not mindful of the NOW! Ha! The universe made me laugh out loud with that lovely affirmation of what I’d just realized.
Enjoy the day friends, no matter what, just enjoy the day.